C O M E U N D O N E

Eliot, the precious little angel.

2008-10-29T08:59:22Z

Please remember

2008-10-20T05:01:30Z

Time, sometimes the time just slips away
And your left with yesterday
Left with the memories
I, I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time
I had you with me

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
And we were wild and free
And remember, please remember me

And how we laugh and how we smile
And how this world was yours and mine
And how no dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ride so fast, we ride so free
And I had you and you had me

Please remember, Please remember..

EVERYBODY BUY 4D!

2008-10-08T03:52:30Z

BLOODY HELL I GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT LAST NIGHT I WAS SO MAD I WANTED TO GRAB THE CAR AND THROW IT ON HER DAMN FACE! So what happened was... I was driving home from school after class at about 7pm last night, and after reversing my car from my parking lot and driving on the aisle (I am green), this dumbass bitch came out from a yield road on my left (she is grey) and collided into my car (at X) (Okay, I see the need to emphasize... on A FUCKING YIELDDDDDDDDDD ROADDDDDDDDDD!!!) That stupid woman obviously is either blind or that she can't read English because she doesn't understand the word "YIELD" that's printed in bold X9000000000 font on the road!

After the collision, both of us came out of our cars to assess the damages and shortly after, there were a few cars waiting behind us so we had to move aside and park somewhere else to talk. Her first question to me was how old was my car and to estimate the damages needed for repair. Like seriously, it doesn't matter if my car is 1 day, 2, 5, 10, 50 or 100 years old, it is your fucking fault so you pay! And also, how am I able to estimate the cost of the damages? That's our insurance companies' business, they will evaluate and estimate the costs, and decide on whatever necessary repair or compensation. I'm guessing she probably wanted to take my advantage and settle it by not involving any of our insurance companies. Then we started to argue because she actually had the audacity to tell me that even though it was mostly her fault, it was partly mine too because I was driving too close to my left? And if that wasn't enough, she gave a lame excuse that the white van (parked at the parking lot outlined with purple) that was parked beside the yield road was blocking her vision of the cars coming from the through-road. FUCK YOU. Isn't that the whole fucking purpose of a yield road?! To fucking give way to the cars and STOP if you can't see! What a dumbass... Then the moron suggested that we should drive up to her husband's workplace, somewhere nearby to negotiate. Hello!?? Do you really think I'm that dumb (like you) to waste my gas to drive up to your husband's workplace who is not even involved in the accident, and be willing for them to gang up together and get ostracized?! Seriously, stupid is an understatement for her. So that bitch totally did it for me and I started thrashing her and being aggressive with my hand gestures waving around frantically everywhere, she probably got scared and told me we are not in a conflict, and she just wants to come to a mutual agreement yada yada yada yada... Fuck you I don't wanna hear another word of your broken American-machiam-Espanol accent, I can't even be bothered to explain to her anymore because all I wanted was her information needed to report a claim from our insurance companies. And me being the goldfish with selective memory retention, I forgot everything that my brother had told me on what information to get in case of an accident. I tried to call him a few times but he didn't pick up his cellphone because he was in class.. I couldn't think of anyone else so I called Anthony for help! Then I took whatever information that was needed from her and also pictures of the damages on her car.

So last night when I got home, I called both our insurance companies and gave them the required information and an account of what happened. Her insurance company told me they will give her a call to make sure that she agrees and confirm with whatever information that I have provided because the other party has the right to dispute my claim. OMGGG KILL ME NOW PLEASE! That was only when it occurred to me that I must be the World's Dumbest Victim because I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN PICTURES OF THE SCENE WHERE THE ACCIDENT TOOK PLACE AT THE INTERSECTION OF THE YIELD ROAD AND PARKING AISLE BEFORE MOVING OFF! What if she tries to twist the story and claim that it's not her fault and push the blame to me?! I don't have any evidence or witnesses! Damnit. However, if you assess the damages on both our cars, my car was damaged on the side, and hers on the front... So it is obvious that I WAS ON THE THROUGH-ROAD, AND I HAVE THE RIGHT OF WAY. There is no contest. So my poor car now has a (1) longggggggg hideous scratch all the way from the side of the front bumper to the end of the driver's door, (2) a dent on the driver's side door, and (3) part of the glass on the driver's side front headlights is broken and dangling pathetically because there is a dent there as well, I had to use 10,000 layers of tape to prevent it from falling off. And the irony is that her Volkswagen Passat had only suffered minimal damages; (1) the front license plate is skewed, and (2) only incurred not-so-visible scratches on the metal plate in the front of her car. URG THIS IS SO UNFAIRRRR I was actually feeling okay when it happened, but the more I think about it, the madder I got! Plus I only got my driving license exactly 1 month and 4 days ago! URG I NEED A PUNCHING BAG NOW!!!

Anyway, let's just hope that she is not that despicable to twist the story and I get my rightful claim.. I'm starting to get worried because my friends are scaring me, they told me that 9/10 people will twist the story claiming that it is not their fault and also because I do not have any pictures of the scene to substantiate my claim! Also, that bitch better not be getting any claim from my insurance company because it was her fault, and that would only mean that I'd have to pay more premium for my insurance next season!

My mom says nothing else matters as long as I am alright, and that was when it hit me. I realized that it was actually quite scary... Especially being hit from the driver's side! Imagine if this accident were to happen out on the road instead where all the vehicles are traveling at at least 35mph, I'd probably be dead now! So moral of the story is... To always look on the bright side, and buy 4D!

riotofcolors @ 2008-09-30T18:36:00

2008-10-01T01:41:43Z

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The Park Kiely

2008-09-17T21:06:30Z

so my address is:
4301 Norwalk Drive, U201
San Jose, CA 95129

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U201

This is the entrance of my apartment. Turning right will lead you to the living room, balcony, kitchen and the dining area; and left will lead you to both the bedrooms and baths. There's a common closet where we keep our shoes and miscellaneous such as the Emergency bags, tool, drills, car wash kit, laundry and et cetera. I'm super anal about people wearing their shoes and stepping outside the mat - A lot of times I see the resident service personnel coming into my apartment with their shoes on and advancing onto the carpet without even asking for permission if they are allowed to do so... Urg it just gets on my nerves, I'll torture whoever I see doing it again! There is a mat for a reason, dude.

I've been spending most of my time infront of the television laughing at the stupid blondes on american reality TV, growing fats, stoning and painting my nails. I literally lived on the couch for the past three months.

I've probably stepped into the balcony only thrice since we've moved here because it's bug-infested and so dusty outside, and I have a phobia of squirrels jumping onto my head!

It's funny recalling it but my parents, brother and I had to get into a big argument for every furniture piece that we shopped for because each of us had different opinions on which one to get - I'm usually on my dad's side and my brother on my mom's side, and of course I can never allow them to win because my mom has the most orbiang taste in the whole world and my dad usually give in to my mom. Ahh... I remember that gruelling period, so physically and mentally exhausting! Anyway, this dining table was one of the pieces that we fought for over an hour and finally agreed on upon everyone's consensus, athough I still feel like the Tatami-themed dining table doesn't really harmonize with the couch. Whatever.

The kitchen is an open concept leading to the entrance of the apartment and the dining area on each side. Look! I can still laugh at stupid bimbos while doing my dishes. Notice there's a weighing scale in the kitchen? I placed it there on a strategic position because just directly above it is The Danger Zone where I keep my chips, cookies, porky, nuts, gum, soda and every variety of bite-size chocolate bars in my junk cabinet! It serves as a reminder that I'm on a hardcore diet, I could sense the scale flashing red mysteriously every time my hands reaches out to open the junk cabinet...

Doesn't my bed look like a Bridal Bed? I had trouble sleeping for the first few nights (and sometimes until now) on my bed because it's all red and tacky. So much for spending two hours in Bed, Bath & Beyond searching high and low, literally for bed sheets... and turns out there weren't anything that I liked! Bummer.

That's my study table which I havn't put into its intended use yet. There are the photo frames which I've bought from Ikea but have yet the time to develop the photos, which explain for the empty frames. See I'm pathetic like that.. because I have no idea where in hell to develop instant photos in this god-damned foreign place.

Everyone meet Tiny The Dinosaur! Aww... Isn't he the cutest?!! Brett drew it and it sure owns any Michaelengelo or Van Gogh's pieces! Also, the little gladiator dude beside Tiny is Lil' Brett, I shrunk him and bring him along everywhere I go! He watches me study, eat, shit, run and sleep.

This closet was probably the primary reason why we even decided on this apartment even without delibrating or continue with our apartment hunt. It looked so huge and spacious during at the time when we were given our guided tour, you can even accommodate a bed inside, but once I started putting in all my stuff, there's barely enough room for more clothes or bags now! Boo boo!

The infamous wellies that weigh 5 pounds and needed to be worn to board the plane because my luggages were already overweight and the custom was so strict on the baggage allowance!

I'm not posting any pictures on my brother's bedroom and the two baths because (1) I'm lazy. (2) Boys' room are equally as messy and filthy like the baths, and nothing interesting. (3) I'm fucking irritated with LJ, how the hell do I put all these content under the cut!? Urg

... Someday.

2008-09-07T08:14:20Z

It has been more than three months since I've bid my tearful, heartbreaking farewell, and honestly, I am still not quite accustomed to the lifestyle here in US yet. The first month has been totally hectic and exhausting, physically, mentally and emotionally with all the stuff that I had on hand - moving to San Jose, buying new furniture, car shopping, registration of college, driving test and of course, adapting to a new environment.

I remember the first few weeks of living in US, I was afraid of everything. I was afraid to meet new people, afraid to start a conversation, afraid to ask questions, afraid of what's in hold for me in the future, even ordering a beverage from Starbucks needs building up of courage! Quite frankly, I was taken aback and disappointed at myself for being so vulnerable - the lack of intrepidity, and the unwillingness to feel the excitement of moving to a new country and starting a whole new chapter in my life. Everyone expected me to adapt well in changing environments, even myself. But why was I indifferent to adapting my new life, learning new stuffs... or even try to be happy? I sensed there weren't any reasons for me to be happy without Brett, my family and friends by my side, and thus do not deserve and should not even try. There is never a single day that went by without thinking about my dad, sister, Brett and my friends, reminiscing the good times we had together, and picture what it will be like the next time I go back. I left too much of an emotional baggage behind in Singapore and was still trapped in my shell, refusing to step out of my comfort zone.

The second week, I finally broke down. I had to accomplish a "To-do" list that goes on forever... while fighting with the emotional battle inside me. That day, I had some trouble with my bank accounts and I was so clueless and helpless about everything, I cried in front of my Mom and brother. I think they were shocked and actually felt bad about it.

The last few months before I left for US, I was writing down any events in my daily planner - big, medium or small, that was happening and would always look forward only to the subsequent one to distract myself from the day that I had to leave. I figured my reluctance to embrace my new life was because I was still so caught up with the last few months that I had in Singapore - I had Brett, my family, my friends... together, having so much fun! They were the happiest days in my life. Even though I always knew I had to leave for US after my diploma studies in order to retain my US permanent residency, I wasn't prepared. I was only looking back and dreading what I would be missing, but never looking forward. I never expect myself to be so emotional towards this whole situation because I recalled 4 years ago, I was actually dying to leave for US after my O'levels to stay with my sister, and was actually disappointed that my parents only sent my brother away, instead of both of us.

I know I really ought to be thankful for all the opportunities that I am granted with. Having such mediocre grades in poly wouldn't grant me a place in the local university, and I am aware that this is my second chance and probably the last shot to do well academically. I appreciate that I have my Mom and brother staying together to take care of me and providing a direction to almost everything that I needed to know. It really helps that there's a "veteran" telling you exactly what you need to know - say, if you need to do/get something, it's always neat to have someone offering a direction, guidance or advice rather than having to ask around or look up and search for it yourself.

The past few weeks, things are slowly coming into places and looking up for me. I am getting used to this lifestyle, the independence and freedom, and enjoying the conversations that can randomly pop up with any strangers. I've had enough of the longest hiatus from school, and I can't wait for college to finally begin, make new friends and be caught up with school work and activities all over again! I am hopeful that someday, I will eventually settled in with my new life and be truly happy and content with myself... Someday.

reminiscing ultimate love

2008-07-06T14:28:44Z

Dinner at clarkquay with koko. Once again she won some hard cash from singaporepools, making her 60K richer. 'Tio Bae Peo'(strike 4D) is like relac only for koko, this year she struck the winning pool like 5 times already, and we are not even towards the end of the year!

Rough estimation...
1st Jan of 2008- 30K
Chinese New Year- 3K
Her Birthday- 200+K
The Day After Her Bday- 12K
Yesterday- 60K

All in all, capping in easily 300K in 6months! Koko is super huat man! On the average for the past 10 years or so, she clock approximately 4 strikes per year, but this year, she kinda broke her own personal record already,haha! Its good to have a godma like her as 'unknowingly' i too became richer,haha!

Set aside everything from above, after dinner I was ffull and decided to take a stroll along the river, which eventually brought me to medi ya japanese supermart. Was browsing through the endless throngs of shelves when i noticed an ice cream parlour from the corner of my eye, the right one! its Haato!!!!! Zin loves Haato! We use to eat it whenever we are in town, it was like an inseperable commodity to us! Lychee or strawberry sorbet for zin and chocolate banana for me!

So anyway, I got myself the lychee and the choco banana, wah damn dope. And so yah, end of story! Im full n sleep now!

P/S: missin those 'you-one-mouth-i-one-mouth' moments with chew! :))

sunday, the day before monday.

2008-06-29T14:00:01Z

2140hrs. 20minutes later, incredible tales will be showing on channel5, then right after IT, on that very same channel, its Pushing Daisies! During the midst of the show, YOU should be awake then!!! :D. 0240 is woohoo time!!! Euro finals!!! So anyway, there are many events to look forward to for now, but dammit! Once again, monday is never a good day! There is healthy lifestyle first thing in the morning and then its back to that work cycle! Hell no, is there enough sleep and hell yeah am I feeling the need to visit Lim Country Clinic! Anyway, im just bored and kinda fiddling with my BB and I guess this must be the longest entry I have drafted out, as of now.

P/S: I miss that face!
-hacker.

BRETT

2008-06-15T14:37:27Z

haha! I DO COME IN HERE DAILY, JUST TO LET U KNOW! =D

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2008-06-15T04:37:07Z

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